Esther Earl

     One my biggest role models in life is now Esther Earl. You may or may not have heard her. If you have read The Fault in our Stars by John Green, you have indirectly dealt with. Many of his books are bestsellers and I have personally read a few of them. He is a good writer, but by far his best book in The Fault in our Stars. My theory is that since this book was inspired by Esther Earl, it meant more to him. His character, Hazel, had deep insight for her age, just as Esther Earl. But more than that, the most powerful writing comes from things we have actually experienced. 

     Esther Earl was truly an amazing person. Currently I am reading a collection of her journals called This Star Won't Go Out. In this book, she describes her struggles with cancer. It's interesting how she apologizes for complaining even though when she was writing it, she probably thought that no one would read it. She writes that the journal is the only place where she can express her complaints. I love her writing because she writes like she talks. She doesn't use big words or proper grammar like most people do when they write. She writes right from the heart. It is a shame that she never lived to adulthood to continue writing. 
    I think the reason she is such an inspiration to me was because she is so selfless. When I first read Divergent  by Veronica Roth, I thought about what it really meant to be selfless. I thought about how I hated being around people who aren't aware of the people around and I vowed to myself that I would be a more selfless person. Esther Earl was a selfless person without even trying. I mean she tried her best never to cry in front of her parents because she knew she needed to stay strong for them because as John Green writes, "The only thing worst than biting it from cancer, is having a kid that bits it from cancer." 
    I hate reading this book because it makes me miss Esther even though I never knew her. It also makes me feel really bad for Esther's parents who will forever feel her loss. 
    Even though I am not a nerd-fighter and have never read the Harry Potter series, I feel really close to Esther and have joined the many mourning for her.